I. Am. So. Tired.

I can't lie. I'm exhausted. I've been working 6 days a week at my job and in my free time, burning the candle at both ends. This has been a huge wake up call for me. I had this vision that I would pick a date to start my plan and then everything would be flowers and unicorns from there on out. Of course it would be challenging in the gym and staying on my diet but for the most part, things would run smoothly. As it turns out, this is going to require a much bigger lifestyle change than I had anticipated.

I'm a night hawk and it's totally normal for me to stay up until at least 11 p.m. every night...Oh ya, and I'm not a morning person! This is a terrible combo when your involved in an undertaking that requires a lot of preparation and focus. I was so excited to get everything started this week and I've been shocked at just how difficult it's been. I feel like I've been walking a tightrope the last few days---constantly off balance. So that's what I'm going to work on. Balance!

This might be the part where in the past that I would determine that this was just 'too hard' or 'not a good point to start something like this'. In essence, I would quit. But not this time. I recognize that there some problems with my lifestyle that are not condusive to achieving my goals. Bottom line, I want this more than anything in my life right now. Aside, of course, from my friends and my family, this is what is the most important thing to me. I have to find a way to make this work.

So I am going to try something I've never done before. Sunday-Thursday I'm going to aim to be in bed by 9 p.m. and get to bed as early as possible on Friday and Saturday. This might not seem like a big deal to some people but this is going to be a huge challenge for me. I honestly can't remember the last time I went to bed that early...maybe when I was sick? haha

I said when I started this that I would be honest. And honestly, I feel a little overwhemed yet oddly excited. I'm not usually someone who likes change but in this case, I think I need it. Not having a lot of free time and being on a tight schedule is going to be a constant in my life but I don't need to let that control my life or goals. I will have to make some sacrifices to get to the finish line!

I will let you guys know how this goes. I don't know how I feel about becoming a boring old lady, but if that's what it'll take to get a killer body, then so be it! I said I would post some pics of fitness/wellness products I like and I will do that, but I'm going to need a buy a new camera cord. I will for sure have them posted this weekend....they're soooo awesome! I think you'll like em. ;)

Once again, thanks for reading. Not only do I want to make myself proud, but I want to make everyone following this journey proud too! It's on!